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Valentines Day
Was suppose to spend with friends but because of several reasons, did not.
Spent it with mother & roommate @ vivo shopping & getting fcking pissed.
Shall not go into details because its boring.

Sunday
Normal boring day @ church.
Got pissed off at some fucking annoying church teacher because she was seriously,
no offense, being damn bitchy. Seriously, I was only talking to Jihae about something
and was gonna listen to the pastor's sermon about taking revenge (yadayada) after that,
but she just had to piss me off telling me t keep quiet and staring at me like as if i was
talking so fucking loud till everyone could hear. Then she just suddenly came and sat
on the empty seat next to mine, so okay fine, i shut my trap, I was listening to the sermon
while i was doing my maths homework cos i was pissed off, and then she tapped me
and gave me that stern stare, she was extremely close to my face, so bloody close to
the point I could see her horrifying wrinkles and thick thick make-up. Since she stared
at my face, i stared back and she asked me what are you doing, so obviously i replied,
im doing my maths homework why. Then she whispered are you suppose to be doing
that, you came to church to listen to the sermon right. So okay fine, i crossed my arms
and stared at the pastor yakking for all his worth. I was cooling down already when
she ,without even asking my permission, took my pencil box and hit some girl two seats
in front of me to keep quiet. Excuse me, rude? So when she got off her seat to tap
someone else, I purposely grab all my books away and blatantly placed them on my
that chair table thingy. Unfortunately, she was holding my blue pen, so i stared at it,
and she placed it on my table, but she just had to touch my arm. Like what the fuck?
So i immediately moved my arm away and crossed them again.
From now onwards, Im not even gonna act as if that old hag is around. im going to
ignore whatever she asks me be it out of courtesy or friendliness. Annoying old woman.
I wont give a fuck if she complains to my mother about me because she honestly is
messing with the wrong person.

Over the long weekend,
it was really great to have my childhood bestfriend over in Singapore.
I got the chance to catch up with her,
how she's doing, problems, current issues, whatever.
Frankly speaking, so far I think she is the only person whom I can
really talk to about anything and everything, yet feel comfortable about it.
We watched bride wars( its bride wars right? shit i forgot the title ),
and it was a really good movie, not some typical chickflick,
its about friendship and marriage. Haha I felt like crying in some scenes,
it was really touching in some parts! But most of the other parts it was
funny as the characters were like plotting and taking revenge.
I slept over at the hotel she was staying,took pictures,had our private
whats-going-on-in-our-lives talk, really catch up in our lives.
Sadly she's only here on a holiday and so, she'd be going back on the 30th?
Gonna really miss you,nuo si! (hugs)
I really treasure this friend, because we've been real tight ever since
I was 5-6? I have so many happy memories of my childhood because of her.
Hopefully, we can keep in touch till we get married!Hahaha,that would be awesome.
Well anyway, for the past few days, it really made me think about my relationships
with other people, for example my friends,classmates,whoever.
I guess throughout my life, i lost a few,made many more, then i lost a few more,
lose touch with other friends,dont really talk much to some, but overall, I guess
what I really gained is experience & understanding other people.
Sigh. I just hope I'll get over this rough patch phase soon.
My entry today doesnt make any link

Forgive and forget.
Its not as easy as it sounds,does it?
Grudges.
Everyone holds grudges, don't we?
Perspective.
Everyone expects you to put yourself in their perspective,
but did they ever try putting themselves in yours?
Hypocrisy.
They wished that they'd have their closed ones constantly
by their side ,rain or shine.
Sadly that will never come true, would it?
Faces.
Just how many faces can one person have?
......
Forgive and forget.
Forgiving just needs you to accept another's apology.
But forgetting is never easy.
Grudges.
Once people truly forgive, they'd never hold grudges.
Perspective.
No one ever thinks of putting themselves in your shoe,
if they all believe wholeheartedly you're the one to blame.
Faces.
We dont need to know how many,
its the true face that counts.

One day, you'll know when you get neglected.
You'll know.

I really need to start sleeping early.
& also start preparing for my 'O' Levels although its just the like
the 3rd day of school tomorrow.

When will I ever stop thinking too much?

Yesterday(31st Dec),
I was on the train rushing my way to church,
biting my lip anxiously, worrying my dad will blow up
again at my brother and I for being late for mass, again.
And then I started grumbling to my brother
about how I have to spend every new year
listening to the drones of a pastor,
and not be with my friends/loved ones counting down together.
Basically it was just the pessmistic side of me taking over,
i was wondering why cant the last day of 2008 be enjoyable,
why cant i stop worrying,why cant i be somewhere i want to be,
relaxed? And taking into consideration how my dad would
most likely reprimand us( Bro + me) when we reached home
after church, I thought it was all set that the first day of 2009
would be ruined as well.

But my brother said going to church is something unavoidable,
its a commitment & a responsibility, so at that point of time,
I realised I was being very childish & naive.
Which made me think back about whatever I've said.

Whilst going to church,
I realise what I thought was wrong,
that it was my temptations luring me over.
Obviously I prayed ( I mean its church, duh) & felt much better after.
& I started irritating my brother because he was sitting next to me.
I was acting all crazy , raising my candle extremely high like
the statue of liberty, poking the boy infront of my brother,
nudging my brother & giving him extremely bright gleeful smiles.
And he gave me a light punch on my mouth :(
Oh well! brothers are brothers.

Anyway!
Its a New year, new start, a fresh beginning.
I'm glad that before 2008 ended,
I managed to let some things go,without any regrets.
I've thrown away those unhappy times,
those ugly thoughts and opinions,
whereas some things worth remembering,
I'm definitely keeping it close to my heart.

So now that I've said everything,
its time I uploaded my new year resolution.
Here goes!

1.To think before I take action
2.To manage my time properly, analyse what should come first and later.
3.To stop being a spendthrift & START SAVING OMG.
4.To be more focused
5.Be a more...loving daughter? Haha
6.To be less rough & tomboy-ish. Like dont punch people often. Not.good.
7.To study hard when its time to study,and play hard when its time to play!
8.Stop being such a pessimistic donkey.
9.Start sleeping early and not staying up till 3am.
10.Make more friends & well....if possible, get a boyfriend haha!

K fine i know the last one's a little desperate but its just a tiny wish!
Right, I'm off to watch some tivo before I go t sleep.
Happy new year everyone!
x

Today must be a good day.
Why?
1.My happiness surpassed my sadness!
2.I went shopping (whoopy!)
3.I've finally made a decision, a good decision to get over him!
4.I feel happy for feeling happy about the decision
5.I can make myself think of stupid things & laugh like crazy.
6.I just feel happy
7.I am becoming even better friends with new friend!
8.I have a lot of things in common with new friend!
9.TWILIGHT SUCKS SO IM HAPPY!
10.Dont have other reasons, just happy!

Correction, today IS a good day ^^

" I miss you. "
These 3 words, it's not enough to bring out just how much.

(editted)
But you dont deserve that much anymore

Christmas is here.
But strangely, I dont have that Christmas Spirit in me.
Dont feel that excitement the kind of tingly feeling inside.
Im happy, but deep inside, something just doesnt feel right at all.

Well at least I've made a new friend this Christmas!
Its like, sort of a gift from an anonymous haha.
But I think im too much of a burden.
And this year's christmas sucks cos' i feel like a piece of trash,
and i feel left out partly because my dad bought for my brother
a new laptop, and ipod touch for my mom, whereas NOTHING FOR ME :(
and partly because, i've got no one special to celebrate it with.
or more like, he's away. But doubt he'd want t celebrate it with me.
Sigh I dont know, i complain too much....

Speaking of which!
I need to make a list of new year resolutions.
Shall post it soon ^^

I HEREBY PRESENT, ROBERT PATTINSON.
TO ALL EDWARD CULLEN/ ROBERT PATTINSON FAN...
ARE YOU SURE HE LOOKS HOT?????
HE LOOKED LIKE A PSYCHO TO ME THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE MOVIE
:/